Monday, March 24, 2014
24/31 Totally Unacceptable
I blew up today.
At a kid, with more anger issues than I have ever dealt with. He didn't have an assignment done that he had plenty of class time to do. And then, when he wasn't ready on Friday, I gave him over the weekend. Today, he still wasn't ready. The consequence was that he was to stay with me after school and get it done. He knew that Friday. Today, I got all the excuses why he couldn't. Today, I got all the ways he was going to get around the system. Today, I blew up.
I said the one thing I shouldn't have said.
I screamed, "I'm done."
At least I was in the office where other students couldn't hear me.
I can't remember being more unprofessional in my life. I'm embarrassed about it. I'm sad about it. I'm still frustrated. Blowing up did no good whatsoever. And it certainly didn't help the student.
Was I right to be frustrated.
Have I given this student everything he needs, every opportunity to get the work done.
Should I have reacted like I did.
It was totally unacceptable.
I apologized to several people, the student first and foremost.
But I can never take back those words, even if I didn't mean them.
Because I am most certainly not done….